Quick Update

Yes, it’s been a long time since my last post regarding the diet, my health, my weight etc. I’ve had some problems and eating disorder stuff pop-up so I really needed to change directions for a while. I took what amounted to a 3 week interruption which was really a giant off-protocol binge, well, not so bad, I actually ate P3 for a solid week but I wasn’t weighing. I don’t know, like I said, I had to get my mind off of the whole thing. These terrible emotions that were bombarding me were things that haven’t happened since, like, well, childhood, really.

So I made and appointment with a hypnotist. Things went really well. She addressed my issues at a root level, not just a negative-association with food type of hypnotism. She addressed stuff that started in early childhood that messed me up with food for a long time. I don’t want to go into it but let’s say my parents and grandparents had a feud about what I was being fed which led to my living conditions being changed to that of complete instability that affected the whole way I viewed my body, food, the way I loved or hated myself, etc.

That being said, I was engaging in a lot of emotional eating.

Now, I’ve been on injections for 3 weeks and 3 days. I don’t know how much I’ve lost because I don’t know how much I gained in my interruption (but I guarantee you it was a huge pile of fat!) I have 3 more weeks to go. For now, I am not going to disclose my current weight but I’ll report back when I get to 120 lbs.

On a different note, I talked to a doctor recently and with the medical weight charts, determined that my healthy weight range for my frame size is about 100 to 115. When this round is over, I might be there, or maybe not which means another round and that will be fine. I still have to try to stabilize in my 8-10 weeks of P3/P4. I should say that in the last 24 days, I’ve been doing really well as far as not eating off-protocol. Also, the loose-skin problem that I was so mortified about a month or two ago seems like it is resolving itself. The skin seems to be shrinking up! I look different now that I did when I was this same weight last time (a month or two ago), I think from a different fat distribution and also skin tightening.

Because I don’t want to focus so much on the scale until P3 because it drives me into psychosis, I won’t be posting the daily weight loss chart this time unless I get really brave towards the end of the round.