Oh, hi, it’s me, I’m still here. I haven’t weighed in a bazillion days but I weighed today and I’m 2 lbs over LDW so I’m doing an egg correction today.
Yes, I went on P3 earlier than the date I had planned on but it was emergency bail-out, bail-out of the wagon….ahem, off the wagon. You know.
So I’ve been terrified to weigh and have done some back to back correction days. Though today, I am breathing a bit deeper because, all in all, just 2 lbs over LDW is not an unhappy thing for me, it could have been a whole lot more. Just ask all those poor innocent chocolate chips that were sucked into the black hole.
I’ve discovered that this extremely long round was probably counterproductive because the long periods of restriction from eating different kinds of foods was the perfect set up for catastrophic bingeing episodes. It’s not a balanced way to do things. The way Dr. Simeons set it up is that you do 23-45 day rounds with a 6 or more week break in between and do as many as it takes. Had I gone by the book, I don’t think I’d be the blog every other day confessing how much off-protocol disappeared into the black hole (in my face).
Bingeing is a whole ugly mess. I literally like turned into a starving wild animal, all thoughts were on how to get food, getting the food, eating the food, how to get food undetected, how to rationalize a bite, then the next. My personality vaporized, I became entirely obsessed by a primal drive of food-getting and eating. Poor DH was an obstacle in my way, to be trampled and trodden underfoot in my quest to placate the starving wild animal that lives in the black hole.
Moral of the story?
I am a raving lunatic.
Never, never, never, never, never do long P2 rounds.
Don’t obsess in either direction.