Day 1 of Interruption

I gained a zillion pounds from my recent indiscretion. In my universe, 3.4 lbs = zillion. Resigned to my fate, I removed my bracelet with the prize beads and plopped it down on a pile of DH’s junk. I’ll ask for it back after the zillion pounds are gone.

Even yesterday, I was still on my binge rampage. Most of the problem was that DH left me alone at the shop. Left me alone with cookies.

Much earlier in the diet, we removed all the tempting off-protocol food from the house. Why would anyone think it was a good idea to leave me alone in a place full of yummy stuff? Last round, I never ended up having to work by myself for a very long period of time. I can handle it for awhile but I was in there all day yesterday, from 7:30 AM to after 3:00 PM. I think I blew it around noon or so. Anyway, the adage is true – once you pop, you can’t stop.

Late at night, I had decided that since i had royally blown it, that I should grandly royally blow it and enjoy myself a bit so had cup after cup of homemade egg nog. But this contains milk! And I’m lactose intolerant! And who knows, maybe casein intolerant as well!

I documented the effects of consuming the milk product.

within 5 mins:
Uncomfortable full feeling, stomach overfull, bloating, pressure

5-45mins
sneezing, bloated, gas, belching

45 min – 2 hrs
itchy face, shoulders and neck tense, more sneezing, sinus mucus drainage, irritated sinuses, itchy eyes, bloating, gas belching

symptoms continuing until going to bed:
face itches, eyes itch, nose itches inside and out, sneezing, nasal mucus drainage

next day:
snotty, mucusy sinuses, sniffling, can’t breathe freely through nose, sense of smell inhibited, drainage

Isn’t that interesting?

I intend to not add dairy back in again during this interruption until all the symptoms leave, and then if I’m ready, I’ll eat hard cheese or something and see if it sets the allergies off. Otherwise, I’ll do it during phase 3.

Back to the subject of diet and interruption, I guess my plan is to do a protein day today. I mean, I know protein days aren’t meant to be a correction to cheating but I know I should be eating phase 3 style in the interruption…and on phase 3, when gaining more than 2 lbs, you do a protein day. I hope I’ve made the right decision.

At about 6 or 7 pm, I’m going to stick a boat load of white and dark meat chicken in the convection oven WITH THE SKIN ON, sprinkled with herbs and spices. I guess technically, I should plan on having a tomato or an apple with that per Dr. Simeons. I’m going to pop as much of that chicken as I can fit in that hole in my face.

I’m just going to focus on that. Just that. Let me get through today.

Sometime during this interruption on a full belly, I’m going to make a tray of walnut baklava for the shop. I don’t usually have any temptation to snitch the ingredients, other than the walnuts, so I think I can be ok with this project. It contains wheat phyllo, honey, and a little sugar so I’ll have to make sure to bake it after DH comes home so that when I cut and package it, that I’m not alone.

My revised plan for success for continuing on P2 after the interruption is to #1. I SHALL NOT BE left alone at the shop, and #2. I SHALL NOT bake cookies or anything that is NOT a batter type goodies like muffins or banana bread unless DH is there in the kitchen with me to hold my hand. (With batter type stuff, there is nothing to snitch, no broken ones to have to dispose of). And, #3, unless DH is home and in the kitchen with me holding my hand, I SHALL NOT make angel food cake from the leftover egg whites because there are tons of crumbs to dispose of when removing it from the pan, and the glaze tastes way too good.

I don’t know what I’m going to do with myself until 6 or 7 o’clock rolls around. I’m trying to occupy myself well away from the kitchen but I’m getting computer head. You know when you’ve been on the computer too long and your head seems fuzzy, like it’s full of mushy stuff that can’t think very well. That’s computer head. I guess writing a book isn’t the answer, altho I do need to read Pounds and Inches again. And I should put some laundry away and then maybe look at clothing catalogs on the internet after computer head goes away. All that after I make myself a cup of coffee. Well, wish me luck. I guess this interruption is the first step to getting back with the program. (Don’t let me kid you, I just wanna eat fat things).

Oh, BTW, you know how I feel? Like there’s a rope attached to my hand and the rope goes through a pulley and on the other side there is a hammer – above my head, and there is a cookie in my hand, and I’m starving, and every time I bite the cookie, the hammer hits me in the head. That is how I feel.

Spontaneous Unplanned Planned Interruption

I give up. Sort of. I have to take an interruption, I’ve lost my resolve. I want to eat everything, I’ve been eating everything and I can’t do this diet like that. I stopped my HCG already. My last dose was Saturday morning. I didn’t take Saturday night’s because I kind of thought it was time for a break. I didn’t eat all day because I thought I would be home around 2 pm but I didn’t get home until around 6 or 7 pm and I was SO hungry. I was in the shop alone late in the afternoon and it began by tasting a little of this and a nibble of that, thinking, well, I just won’t eat my fruit servings, tonight or my vegetables and so on and so forth. By bedtime, I had poked so much crap into the hole in my face that I felt sick, sick to my stomach and sick in spirit, in such a dispirited state, I didn’t feel like worthy of taking my HCG. I vacillated on the cusp this morning, trying to decide if I was going to interrupt but as the day began to take shape, even small temptations led to monumental failures. I could see for myself that I needed to take a break. My willpower is just worn out. I need some fat calories to fuel it up again – ha ha!

After I wake on Tuesday morning, I can begin to eat P3 style, for awhile. I’m not sure how long. I am guessing it won’t be too long because my first round of P3, after a few days I was like “What was that deprived feeling I had all about?” I guess after you get some different nutrients, proteins, and fats into you, you tend to forget about what it feels like to want. (But right now I WANT!) I did plan on taking an interruption beginning about a week before Christmas but I don’t think I want to extend this one out that long. I assume I’ll be back in the saddle or at least on the wagon well before Christmas. I don’t want to end the round for reasons I’ve already stated but I’ve got to do something cuz sumpin’s broked.

I can’t bring myself to tell you just how bad I blew it yesterday and today.

Anyway. Everyday is a new day. I was still 135 this morning which was no loss, no gain. I *am* afraid to weigh in the morning so I might just maybe not gonna weigh maybe dunno. Maybe tomorrow I can end the last 24 hours of the 72 with discipline and grace before beginning The Emergency Interruption. I guess I’ll have to take food with me to work and act like I’m on a P2 diet rather than not eat anything all day then turn into a hunger-crazed animal and act like I’m on a See-Food diet (see-food-and-eat-everything-in-sight).

So, that’s what it’s like to be human.

The Prize Beads

They’re the silver and gold ones to the left and right of the center bead – the one with the spirals, and the other one with the “O”s.

The spiral one was the prize for reaching my goal of 20 lbs of loss this round, the other one was a huge surprise to make up for the prize that never really got finished way back from last round. If you will recall, DH was supposed to clean off the porches for one of my weight loss benchmarks but he never got around to the back porch…so I not so subtly hinted that he could just get me a particular inexpensive charm bead to make up for it, that way he wouldn’t have that hanging over his head anymore. I was incredibly surprised when I opened the box and found both of my favorite coveted beads in there…and not the inexpensive one that I had asked for either. I never dreamed he’d get me both of these.
The bracelet he got me last Christmas along with two of the glass beads, the 3rd glass bead I got myself and the two squiggly silver beads he got me for my birthday. Yes, it’s another faddy materialistic consumerist pursuit but it sure is fun and it makes me happy. That counts for a lot.

Real Quick Like….

Happy Thanksgiving!!!!

Just a quick note – I am down to 135 lbs with only 25 more lbs to lose!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOOHOO!

Hubby got me prizes – charm beads for my Pandora bracelet. I’ll show pics tomorrow or sometime.

Lost 20.2 Lbs So Far!

You probably want pictures. Well.

I’m so excited!

I lost 20 Lbs!

I get my 20 Lb prize!

I made my 20 lb goal before Thanksgiving!

Total poundage lost since committing to this diet overall is 58.6 lbs. I have 26.4 more lbs to lose to reach goal. I’m going to qualify that statement once again and say that if my goal turns out to be underweight, then it will have to be adjusted upward. It is difficult to know just what I should weigh.

Yesterday, I wore the thrift store (fake) size 2 petite jeans all day with a slight muffin belly effect but not in a painful way. I am pleased with the fit, they are Eddie Bauer brand which is neither here nor there but at least now I have an idea of where I can go to get something that fits. I’d say they are probably like the old-fashioned size 6. Doesn’t that just seem unreal? One day a size 6, the next a size 2…but it’s all the same.

Speaking of pictures, I guess I won’t do the black tights against a white door again. Too much contrast. I’ll either go back to the boy shorts or find a new darker background with the tights.

As Christmas plans are coming together, I am gleefully anticipating more everyday the 7 day planned interruption. It will prolong the round but judging from my agony towards the end of my first round, this break might really help me stay focused for the long haul. I’m in for an extra long Phase 2 round anyway since I plan to stay on it until I reach goal or hit immunity. I just don’t really want to have to do this again. Mainly, I don’t want to have to wait for another whole round to get new clothes. (Yes, it’s all about the clothes!) I don’t like finding something then having to get rid of it and finding something new. Finding new stuff part is ok, the parting with stuff part isn’t my favorite, cathartic – yes, easy – no.

Lost Yesterday’s Pound Plus .4 More

I’ll never understand. Maybe it really was that apple. Or just weirdness.

My vote is weirdness. That settles it.

So I’m down 1.4 lbs from yesterday to 137.6. Only 1 more pound to go to hit 20 lbs of loss.

Here’s my records for the last week.

date weight
11/15/2010 141
11/16/2010 140.2
11/17/2010 139.8
11/18/2010 139.4
11/19/2010 138
11/20/2010 139
11/21/2010 137.6

I think I’ll be needing to mix up more HCG today.

Not much more exciting things to tell. Wore the size old-fashioned size 7 non-stretch jeans again yesterday and they weren’t tight at all, very, very comfortable.

Gained A Pound

I even skipped a veggie serving yesterday, didn’t eat off-protocol, drank plenty of water. I don’t understand.

I ate beef, chicken, onion, apple, strawberries with cocoa powder, green tea, oolong tea, mint green tea, and water. Ugh, you know, I think I ate two apples. I had one in the afternoon but I think I also had one for breakfast which I had forgotten about. I can’t believe that made me gain a whole pound. Mystery solved?

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